Nineteen

How I loved you
I was nineteen
And rode on the back of your bike
I would wrap my arms around you
and hold on tight

I never wanted to let go
Wished I could keep you this close
So that I could smell you
All the time.

You were my soulmate
For that time
Late at night
We would talk about the universe

Why were we here
What were we meant to do with our lives
Your head was not close to the ground
Did you know how I felt?

...

Now we are older
But the same
You still call me when you awake from a dream
When you wonder if you are still on the right path
I always reassure you
I always have

Our friendship is so easy
So comfortable
Is that all it will be?

Our lips have never touched
You always had eyes for another
Until now

I don't have those feelings anymore
My thoughts are about another
Is that why you are drawing closer?
Always wanting what is not easily attained

I cannot see myself kissing you anymore